I'm a planner.

Let me just say that out right. I don't like the unknown. I don't like not having some kind of a plan about what is going to happen. Things have to be mapped out, thought out, talked out, planned out. Remember this about me as you read what is coming.

I'm being called to Haiti.

Not long term (at least not that He's said as of now). But for a missions trip. I've never felt in my spirit a calling like this before. I've never felt like my heart is being pulled toward a country like it's being pulled toward Haiti. I have no idea what good I will be, but I know that God doesn't call the equipped, but equips those He calls. There are so many unknowns with this. Global Expeditions has a trip leaving in March for a week, but it is only open right now to GE and HA Alumni. Which I am neither. So my actually going is up in the air. If the trip in March fills up, they will bump people to 3 other subsequent trips. One of the aforementioned trips happens to fall the week that I have already scheduled off for vacation with the family....coincidence or God's hand? Since I don't believe in coincidence, you can probably figure out what I've already decided on. I don't have a passport, have never been further than South Carolina (unless you count going to Florida with my grandparents when I was 5 and don't really have a good memory of the trip), and have most certainly never gone anywhere without my safety net (Tyler or someone in my family or church). Lots of unknowns. Lots of inability to plan for what is next. Lots of things I'm not used to.

And so my faith is tested.

Not broken, nor will it be.

But tested, and knowing my God, strengthened as well.

I know this is where I'm supposed to be.

I know this is the will of the Lord.

I know that this will change my perspective on the whole world.

I know God knows what He's doing.

{Lord, I know You love me. I know you are in complete control. I know that you know how crazy I am when I have no control, and I love You for breaking that in me. Help me rely on you and trust you. Give me no desire to try to plan for every little thing that may be coming my way, but to know that You know my future. You have big plans for this little woman, and I ask that you give me the strength and the ability to carry them out. I love you Daddy.}